Phase Two...Finding One's 'Work'
A few years ago during a particularly tough period in my life, a friend offered to do a tarot card reading for me. She had no idea what was going on with me, but as a fellow intuitive she could tell I wasn't myself. Tarot is what you make of it. It doesn't have to be taken seriously, but it can be a good way to light a fire under you to take control of your current situation and make some changes to start living the life you want to live. I don't know about you, but I'm a big believer in signs--ones that I seek out as well as those that appear organically. In this particular reading one thing that kept coming up had to do with 'work.' My friend asked me if I had a job outside of being a mother and wife. (I didn't) She asked me if this was something I desired. I wasn't sure, but I knew I had been in need of some sort of pastime that would exercise my brain a bit, get me talking to bright grown ups, and that sparked a passion inside me. As a mom of two boys, one with profound disabilities, I felt my ability to seek a job in the traditional sense was not something I could easily do. My oldest is on a medically reduced school day that begins late each morning. Every time I thought about a job in the traditional sense I rolled my eyes and wondered, 'Who is going to hire a woman between the hours of 11 and 2:30 with flexibility to take her son to countless doctor appointments and be on call when he has a seizure at school and needs to go home?' The thought of finding something that was unrealistically flexible AND worth making the leap for made me laugh...until I got involved in the pursuit to legalize medicinal cannabis in the state of Texas. This was something that lit a fire within me; something that could save my son from the horrid seizures he suffers that cannot be controlled with pharmaceutical medications alone. My friend responded to the first news interview I shared on Facebook during the 2017 legislative session with "I think you just found your work." It was the first of what I hope to be many 'a-ha' moments in my life.
But phase two doesn't stop there...this new activism harkened memories from 2008-2012 when I wrote my first blog. (You can find it here: http://www.thisismynewnormal.blogspot.com) During that time it was incredibly cathartic to allow myself to be vulnerable about my feelings on life and motherhood, but especially as I watched my oldest son's health and abilities deteriorate before my eyes. I wish I had a happy update telling you he was on a better course, but I don't. So here I am once again feeling the need to put my feelings into words; to connect on a deeper level to people I know and people I don't, and to have something to look back on that shows me I have left a mark on this planet, no matter how small a mark it is!
Sometimes you are lucky enough to discover your 'work' early, and sometimes it doesn't happen until you're in your 40s.
I hope those of you who choose to read along will become active participants. I encourage you to comment!
You can buy my friend Deborah Carter Mastelloto's easy-to-use guide ,'The Tarot Primer,' here!
